During the time of going to school and meeting Staci, my relationship with my son's father was coming to an end. I had been with him for 7 years and had fallen completely out of love with him. We were in a very 'young' relationship. I was 19 when I met him and he was 20, needless to say we had a lot of growing up to do and I guess we grew up together and in the process grew apart. From the beginning there were trust issues, lying, cheating and just disrespectful behaviour. Not to say that we didn't have amazing times together, it's just that sometimes the cons outweigh the pros. We tried councling towards the end, grabbing at straws to try and keep it together for our son, but it was too little too late. In order for us to be happy and most importantly for our son to be happy, we couldn't stay together any longer. He left and Isaiah and I started our lives together. It was during that time that I realized how completely lost in the relationship I was. I had lost my own identity and lost the happy, go lucky person I was. I had become a person that I despised. A grumpy, nagging, yelling, resentful girlfriend. After he left though I slowly but surely got back to who I knew I was and who i was happy with. Without the love and support from my friends and family I would be lost. As cheesy as it may sound, this is what Single Moms, Fresh Start is all about, being the friends and family for single moms in need.
Now onto the subject that I can go on for days and days about. The never-ending beat in my heart, the always and forever thought in my head, the constant twitch in my eye (joke..but not really), my red headed, freckled faced love of my life Isaiah. Born April 2008, he came out crying, continued crying for 3 years and now as a 4 year old the crying has turned into whining. Atleast a swaddle or a rock in the rocking chair when he was a baby could stop the crying, the whining on the other hand...I'll get back to you on that when I have it figured out..PLEASE HELP!! :)
He radiates personality and leaves an impression on everyone he meets. Wither it be good or bad, they always remember Isaiah. I never knew I could love someone as much as I love him. I have many goals that I want to accomplish in life, but the one that will make or break me is to raise him to be a good, honest and respectful man.
|Leave a child alone to shave and this is what happens|